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11 May 2011 @ 05:08 pm
I'm back.  

So. It's been a while. Over a year, in fact. I think I shall return to the world of LJ for a bit. I could do with a blog. I use facebook a lot these days, but I'm limited by how long a status I can post, and sometimes you just wanna rant or talk about something in a bit more depth. I'll probably so a review of how life is once I graduate, but for now let's start with a relatively short post.

I'm having yet another day when my motivation is running low. This was supposed to be a productive day, but I've been distracted by watching Scrubs and generally doing very little else. Once an episode ends I ask myself "shall I do some work now...or just watch another episode. After all, it's only 20-odd minutes, right? I have one or two assignments left. I say one or two, because one is a 2,500 word report, while the other is a related 1,000 word press release. So it's kinda of one task, except it's really two. I've got some time to do it, so the pressure isn't on yet. It's not due 'til the 23rd, but that's no excuse for not getting started now. Must make myself read some studies. I think I shall try again for real tomorrow. If I set myself a few goals for the rest of today then I don't feel so bad being lazy and doing the real work tomorrow. And if I write it down here, then I have to do it, right?

1. Read two articles - I know which I want to read next.
2. Sort through the 20 or so tabs that I opened following a Google scholar search. Save relevant things.

I think my problem with motivation stems from how close I am to finishing my degree. It's a bit of an anticlimax. It's just another report. The I'm done. Fingers crossed I get a 1st class degree not a 2:1, but as I'm destined for unemployment and failure it doesn't really matter either way. Once this report is done on the 23rd May, I have one week and a couple days to pack and decide whether to stay 'til my lease is up, or just move in with Chris, the boyfriend. I'm torn between wanting to spend as much time as I can in the flat with my flatmates, and just moving in with Chris. Will have to see what everyone else is doing/when they're leaving.

It's my birthday this weekend. Eep! I always look forward to it, even though I'm all grown up now and it's not a big deal. 23. Wow. And I have no clue what I want to do with my life. Apart from settle down with Chris. As much as I love him and know that he loves me, I still am a little worried that we'll eventually break up. It's a rational worry though, after all, no one knows what will happen. People change. Move in different directions. Fall out of love. Right now though, I'm content with the knowledge that someone loves me, really loves me. No matter how scary and rubbish my life gets, being in love is a wonderful thing.

Right. It's after 5pm. Better get started on that to do list.

Current Location: United Kingdom, Stirling
Current Mood: lazylazy